A Moment of Defeat – Again

**THROWBACK POST**

December 12 2014:

Lillian with Tiarra Maybe 2010

I had another one of “those moments” Wednesday night … like the moment that caused me to write this blog post and the one before it.

This involved some pretty strong emotions so I’m working on writing another and just read the blog posts from 2010 and 2012 again. Thought I’d share here …

I Wish I Wasn’t An 18p- Girl: Moment of Defeat – Take Two

 

Do You Act When Moved to Share Kindness

**THROWBACK POST**

November 12 2013:

Around the time of Thomas’ birthday he so gently asked if he could have an ice cream cone as a birthday treat while we waited for Lillian to finish her therapies. I reminded him we had ice cream at home and that he could have some. He said, “Okay, that sounds good.”

Lillian’s therapy center is only seconds from the fast food place that has soft serve ice cream. After I parked, I filled my mind with thoughts of abundance and generosity and changed my mind. After all, it was only a $1 cone.

As I turned into the parking lot a homeless person was sitting on the curb. In addition to ordering the ice cream for Thomas, I ordered a chicken burger. At least, I think it was me. I felt an overwhelming urge to order that burger and give it to the person we had just passed.

I had Thomas hand it to him as we pulled next to him. I have NEVER done this before. The man thanked us many times.

As we drove off, I told Thomas that it doesn’t matter the reason that man is sitting there or even if he is really homeless. I felt moved to share kindness and I did. I was going to use that money to attend the Dr. Temple Grandin lecture on Thursday night. This felt more powerful and important.

I explained that we never want to NOT share kindness due to judgment of another or for fear that our kindness will not be well received. Once we perform an act of kindness it’s really no longer our business. I’m sure Thomas will remind me of this beautiful moment just when I need it most. Here’s a picture of him with the ice cream on that day … 11.12.13 … He even shared some with me! xoxo

Thomas with Ice Cream Cone 12.12.13

The Tapestry of Life or Something Like That

February 20 2018:

Mailing this today reminded me of the stories about the tapestry of life … something like how one action leads to another, to another and they are all connected.

Barbara Hranilovich and I met online back in 2007. I asked her to blog for a website I owned at the time. She did and her articles were incredibly informative and just plain good.

I suggested she make the articles into a book as each article was about being an entrepreneur and each was paired with a letter of the alphabet. I’m pretty sure that was already Barb’s line of thinking as months later, after I had abandoned the blog, I received a book in the mail, titled “E is for Entrepreneur”.

Barb had created a book from the articles and I didn’t even know until she mailed me the finished product. Barb had included me in her gratitude list in the book and hand wrote a note that the book would never have happened without me.

However, I did not see the note or my name on the gratitude list as it came when I was packing. It was put into a box and I came across it a year or so later ….. when I was trying to figure out the style of my book.

It was exactly what I needed to receive, see, and find to shine the light on how my book was to be written. Hence, “D iz for Different – One Woman’s Journey to Acceptance”.

And, I didn’t tell Barb about it at all. I simply mailed her a book when it was finished with a similar message that she had written to me.

Side note: Barb loves fairies. Years ago she mailed Lillian a fairy book Barb had illustrated, plus a fairy house we keep hanging on our wall.

Now, today, I mailed her a book of fairy tales written by Lillian Darnell!

And we’ve never met in person …. Beautiful, magical, and wonderful tapestry of life …. xoxo

Where Would You Fly Book to Barb 2.20.18

Veggie Burger Swooning and Rainbow Reflections and Water Balloons and Veggie Stir Fry Soup and UNO

February 7 2018:

On a veggie burger marathon lately. This time on a slice of sourdough bread and then layered with sautéed onions and mushrooms, yellow mustard, ketchup, chopped dill pickle, hot and sweet jalapeño, and kalamata olives. With a side of potato medallions and cherry tomatoes. YUM!!! sEriousLy … Swoon Yummy!! xoxo

Veggie Burger with Potato Medallions 2.7.18

February 8 2018:

Pretty rainbow reflections with LEGO village shadow. We so much enjoy having crystals hanging in the window. Makes such beauty!

Prism Rainbow 2.8.18

February 8 2018:

Finally gave in and I’m unpacking the boxes I had packed last summer in anticipation of our move .. that didn’t happen. Look what I found! Yes! Water balloons! Thomas and I went outside in 50 degree whether, in the dark, and tossed a water balloon. One of us came back inside wet, and it wasn’t Thomas!! We’re gonna have some fun with these!!

Water Balloons 2.8.18

February 9 2018:

Turned the yummy veggie stir fry into a yummy veggie stir fry soup today. Yum, yum, yum!! xoxo

Veggie Stir Fry Soup 2.9.18

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Tonight it was UNO!! My favorite card game! What’s yours? xoxo

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Lillian and Camilla January 2018 Date Day

January 23 2018:

Lillian and Camilla January 2018 Date Day –

First stop: We shared Parmesan sea salt fries and jalapeño cheddar bread. Dessert of Mexican wedding cookie for me and gingerbread bar for her. Here’s to 15 and a half years of once a month Date days!!

Second stop – One of our favorite parks and walking trails for throwing the frisbee and a beautiful, peaceful, and quiet walk. xoxo

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What Does Hurricane Harvey Have to Do With D iz for Different

January 11 2018:

Just received five of these! Two are spoken for, so that means only three left with this awesome cover. The wheels are about to start turning for an updated cover. xoxo

D iz for Different Books Shipment of 5 Received 1.11.18

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What does Hurricane Harvey have to do with acceptance?
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Well. Hurricane Harvey must have needed a dose of acceptance as he borrowed my friend Monica’s copy of “D iz for Different”. By the time he was done with it, the book was destroyed.

So. Yesterday was a good day to mail Monica a replacement book. Courtesy of another friend who found out about it. Love, sweet love. xoxoxo

D iz for Different to Monica 1.12.18

Love and Beauty and Fun

December 26 2017:

Solo walk this morning. I stood next to this tree for a while. Thanks Mr. Tree. I’m blessed and grateful for your love and beauty. xoxo

 Solo Vintage Lake Walk 12.26.17
Sunset walk with Thomas. This felt so incredibly good!! Great fun throwing rocks onto the frozen lake. xoxo
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Best Time for a Post Office Trip and Let’s Go Swimming

December 14 2017:

The best time to make a post office trip: 10:30 at night! One Biggest Little Photographer book on the way to Virginia!! Have fun Mr. Minifigure man!

We also found out how many times we can drive around the round-a-bout before feeling dizzy. Four. That’s it!

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December 15 2017:

Homeschool swimming day at Carson Valley Swim Center! Thomas is having a great time! What a fun place and a beautiful drive to get here too. Lillian opted for some quiet alone time as it’s kind of overwhelming in here.

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Lillian and Camilla December 2017 Date Day

December 14 2017:

Lillian and Camilla December 2017 Date Day –

Lunch of mushroom pizza slice for me and Parmesan fries for Lillian. Dessert was an amazing pistachio mochi for me and a gingerbread bar for Lillian.

Then … one of my least favorite things to do – window shopping. Yet, for her and with her, yes, please. Had fun looking at calendars and ornaments.

Ended our date with a short twilight walk around the lake. Loved ending with this as we looked at the stars and enjoyed Christmas lights. Yes, please. I’ll have more. Thank you!!

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