May 12 2020
Thoughts about Mother’s Day …
I didn’t post anything on Mother’s Day. I was feeling down, and dealing with aching teeth.
Mother’s Day has never been about store bought gifts and flowers for me. I do not judge those who find these things meaningful. I have always loved and enjoyed the home made cards and gifts that Thomas and Lillian made me when they were younger.
I attempted to raise them not to feel compelled to give gifts just ….
I can’t stand being led around by the nose by the Whatever-Gift-Giving-Day/Season-It-Is BS! It’s stressful and can lead to people feeling obligated; which one can sense in the gift received.
Thomas is a double edged sword (in a good way). He can say the most beautiful things in one moment and the next moment be calling me on my own BS, when I’ve said something judgy or just downright mean! I have to tell him every once in a while that I’m a grown ass woman and I will live my life the way I want and he can live his the way he chooses, when he gets older, that is! HA!
I sometimes cringe at the things I share, after the fact. Yet, I know in the moment that I am to share. I no longer question this incredibly strong intuitive knowing. My mind says, “Don’t post that. Others will think you crazy and woo woo, etc … ” My Knowing says, “Thank you, mind. Your input is not needed right now.”
Also …. It’s definitely nice to be remembered and receive appreciation for being who we are.