Top 10 Digital Diary Entries for 2020


(September 28 2020 – Lillian’s Belated 19th Birthday Poolside BBQ)

Top 10 Digital Diary Entries With the Most Views for 2020

  1. Movie Night: The Little Mermaid
  2. Movie Night: Halloweentown
  3. Movie Night: Howl’s Moving Castle
  4. Movie Night: Thor – The Dark World and Water of Summer by Lillian Darnell
  5. From No Bed to Plush Bed – New Bed for Thomas
  6. Songs to Conquer and Encourage you by Lillian Darnell and Congratulations to Lillian and I Love Our Weirdness and How We Celebrate
  7. An Aversion to Doing Anything the Typical Way – Camilla Interviewed by Jess Faraday and Movie Night: Pirates of the Caribbean – The Curse of the Black Pearl and Movie Night – The Princess and the Frog and Massive Sky Art with Beautiful Wild Horses and Unfulfilled Longing by Camilla Downs
  8. Guide to Self-Publishing by Bloomsbury – Camilla Contributed
  9. Wild Herds of Amazing and Survival of the Reno Downtown Library – Lillian Darnell and Movie Night – The Trip
  10. Movie Night – Pirates of the Caribbean – On Stranger Tides and Movie Night: It Happened on Fifth Avenue and Lillian and Camilla February 2020 Date Day and A Lovely and Magical Book – Curled Up With a Good Book – Where Would You Fly and Movie Night: The Little Mermaid Live!

Movie Night: Mulan

January 9 2021

Team TLC Movie Night – Lillian’s choice: “Mulan”

Lillian says, “Good, liked the background music, liked the song, “Reflection”, at the end, favorite character is Mulan, and liked the moral of never give up, and everyone has a dream and hope.”

I say, “I absolutely loved this. I was glued to it the entire time.”

Thomas sat this one out.

Throwback Post: The Feedback Confirms It

(Camilla at Lake Tahoe Summer 2013)


February 5, 2013

I had myself a little ole meltdown tonight. Went to my room and closed the door. Heard Thomas and Lillian talking with each other. They came into my room and Lillian had typed in her Proloquo2Go app 3 things. 1) Take some deep breaths 2) Self-talk 3) Don’t worry, Be Happy ….

These are some of the ideas I give them for when they are feeling angry or sad. These two really are listening to me! Using my own stuff on ME! One “Don’t Worry, Be Happy” Song, one “Every little things gonna be all right” song, one “Home” song, lots of Thomas hugs, and a Lillian in my lap later …. ahhhhhhhh!

It was a good release! Not just for me, for Thomas too. Mr. T was so moved by my meltdown he shared some things with me that were bothering him. He told me a fib earlier today and it was really bothering him. ONWARD!!!! Hugs and deep breaths for anyone needing them!!

What I am teaching my children is that they have a choice in how they relate to people, situations, events … reality. People, situations, and events just ARE. It is the space between the stimulus and response where we get to choose whether we will take a negative view and/or respond in an unkind manner. I am attempting to teach them to recognize that space and to know they have a choice. Ultimately what they choose will be up to them. They are each their own person.

My hope is that as they mature and encounter difficult people or situations they will have the wisdom that they get to choose their response because that’s what they saw me do when I encountered difficult situations and/or people.

For whatever reasons I am moved to share my life and my family with others. I stopped questioning why a few years ago. I often receive feedback that confirms why I am to share my life.

Someone said to me the other day that I came into her life at just the right time. She was feeling so overwhelmed and had decided to leave her marriage. After connecting with me, she released many of the things she was letting overwhelm her and changed her mind about leaving her marriage.

So I will continue to share my life. No matter those that disagree. If it helps one person, if it turns one persons life around, if it inspires one person to conquer fears, if it enriches the lives of others …. My reason for being here is fulfilled.

(Camilla at Lake Tahoe Summer 2013 – PS … Lake Tahoe water is freezing cold!)

**March 2021 Update – This was before I learned the concept of emotional connection, making sure to allow oneself to physically feel and experience emotions. So my views on it, and what I modeled to Thomas and Lillian shifted once I learned how important it is in furthering one’s growth, and mental/emotional health. The person I mention in the next to last paragraph … She continued to move forward and is happily married to that same person.

Shenanigans of the Insurance Variety

January 2 2021

Mental Health and insurance shenanigans – I spent two days last week, with another full day the week before, trying to get an appointment(s) set for Thomas for 3 different issues. 1) Mental/Emotional Health 2) IQ Test (to apply for a local school) and 3) Autism Screening.

It would be helpful if all of these could be done with the same person (psychologist), and/or the same time. Nope. First, finding someone who takes Thomas’s insurance. The IQ test is not covered unless it’s done with the autism screening. The IQ test needs to be done by end of February. Those who take his insurance for autism screening are scheduled out 6 months to TWO YEARS! Quotes for IQ test: $525 – $650. 🤯🤯🤯

I probably sent about 20 emails and placed a handful or two of phone calls. Lots of responses of not taking the insurance, and then if they do, they are booked way into the future, or they don’t see his age group. I got on a waiting list for a mental/emotional health appointment that’s only 2 months out. Waiting for a call back to set an appointment for August for the autism screening. Waiting for an email response to set an appointment for the IQ testing for this month. Each. One. With. A. Different. Person.

Fortunately, I’ve had about 19 years of experience advocating for Lillian, and I’m grateful that we do have access and options. I’m up for it, and I can handle it. Honestly, I think I’m kinda weird in that when I keep hitting dead ends, it fires me up even more, and I WILL find a solution. I be like, don’t get in my way now. I’m doing this! Hahahaha!

I just feel sad for people who can’t figure this maze of sh** out, or who have no one to advocate for them, or who need mental/emotional health help ASAP, but aren’t in a state of crisis! 💔💔💔 (A photo of something beautiful to balance this post … HA!)

February 2021 Update – I put Thomas on two waiting lists that were about 2 months long. We should be just about there with the wait. We decided not to apply to the school so we didn’t need the IQ test right away, so we’re set for August for the autism screening with IQ test. Whew! 

One Year Homeversary for Team TLC

January 2 2021

It’s our one year Homeversary!

The clouds and sky made a pretty show for us yesterday at sunset. Getting into this place one year ago, coupled with becoming a host home provider for Lillian in February 2020, meant the world to my emotional and physical health.

November 2019 was the tipping point for me, and I’m deeply blessed and grateful to everyone who helped us along the way the previous ten years. Because of these two events I was able to take 2020 as a year of rest and reset.

My body, mind, and heart were wasted after about 13 years of focusing on healing, with struggling financially. I am feeling so much better! Hallelujah!!!! I’m ready to rejoin society! 🤣😂 … As soon as society is able to reopen! 😂🤣 … Oceans of love to all of you!! ❤️❤️❤️

Projector With a Spleen Authority – Human Design

December 27 2020

Been exploring this all afternoon. Mainly for Thomas. I’ll explore mine and Lillian’s after I’m finished with his. Deeply interesting, and fun! If you’re familiar with Human Design, what’s yours?

Thomas: Projector with a 4/6 profile and Spleen Authority.

Lillian: Manifesting Generator with a 6/2 profile and Emotions Authority.

Camilla: Generator with a 2/5 profile and Emotions Authority.

If you’re familiar with Human Design, and familiar with us, what do you think? Sound like us?

I spent almost 2 days putting together a report for Thomas, with all of his information. Whew!

Team TLC Welcomes 2021

December 31 2020

“I Will Survive” – Gloria Gaynor …. Love!!! One of my favorite songs! 🎶🖤🎶

A beautiful 2020 sparkling pink lemonade with vegan “cheesecake” topped with homemade cherry sauce. We celebrated on New York time so I’m off to bed. Last dreams of 2020 and first dreams of 2021. See y’all next year! 🖤🎉🖤