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September 28 2012:
You make me HAPPY …
You make me smile …
You make me laugh …
You make me cry with joy and pride because you have realized your worth …
You make me wanna dance …
You make me inspired …
You make me proud with your strength and courage …
You give me goosebumps over the wisdom you share with Thomas and Lillian …
Go here to read the rest …
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November 5 2013:
The timing of reading and learning is always perfect … Just re-read my friend Bobby J Bryant’s book and was moved to write this blog post.
“My happiness and all answers I seek are completely and totally within me. It does not come from the outside. Happiness does not come from.” Right on Bobby!!
Live and love like there’s no tomorrow … xoxo
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October 30 2012:
Had to get his out of my head!! It’s been brewing in there to the point of not being able to focus on anything else! Whew! Done! Posted with love and the hope that it helps others.
” I had landed in the darkness of my life. If you had asked me during that time if I could go back in time and change things so this were not to happen, I would have given you a resounding YES!!! Now, six years later, ….”
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November 10 2012:
My feel good song this morning … LOVE Nina Simone …. My favorite Nina Simone song is “I Want a Little Sugar in My Bowl” … not appropriate “cooking-breakfast-with-the-kids-music” though!!
May 28 2023
Oh my gosh! I love my new shoes! 🖤
And y’all. These dating apps are weird and wild. Especially when you’ve been holed up for 8 years, and have been solo for 15 years. 😱 My neurospicy self researched all of them, ranked them according to reviews, and have been trying one a week. 🤣 This is the Camilla Way. 💥 I’m on the third one now.
I have no idea what I’m doing, and don’t expect anything of it (and not sure I want something to come of it). I’m mainly doing it to move out of my comfort zone, to start socializing once again, and to be fully participating in this moment in time. 💋❤️💋 (And just noticed I haven’t cleaned the new polish I put on yesterday. Whatever, candid shot!)
June 13, 2023 Update – Well. I think I’m about done with these crazy dating apps. There are simply way too many fake profiles and nonsense. I don’t think I have the patience for it! I’m going to stick to socializing in person for now.
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November 27 2012:
Today I am thankful for patience and that somehow it surfaces in me when I need it most. I’m grateful that I can have a “down” day, when all seems so heavy, and wake up the next day vital, fresh and renewed with the knowing that all is as it should be knowing that “every little thing’s gonna be alright …. ” Big warm hugs y’all!! – Camilla
April 15 2023
Let’s talk about EMDR therapy. Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing Therapy.
I’m working with a therapist to help with the remnants of what I wasn’t able to fully move through during my nearly 10 year spiritual deep dive. Many of you know the time period I’m talking about. Much of it is in my 2nd book.
Currently having my mind blown with the power of EMDR therapy. I have much and deep childhood and teen trauma. We are at age 9 years old currently.
With this therapy, getting the iron deficiency anemia and pernicious anemia, and the gut issues under control, and the neurodivergent adult group I’ve been a part of the past couple of months, (and one other blowing my mind tidbit – 😉), I feel more alive, bright, and joyful than I have in many years.
I feel things lifting, shifting, and I’m making my way to having a kick ass second half of my life. Here I go dancing, walking, and strutting my way into exciting times! 💋❤️💐❤️💋
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December 19 2012:
A friend said to me once, “You have everything within you to be fulfilled and to have HappYness. It is within you. Being fulfilled and happy has nothing to do with outside circumstances or other people. Go within to find it.” Trust me y’all, I know this is hard work. But it is so worth it to reap the rewards of being peaceful and content no matter what is happening outside of you. Big ole warm hugs!
**March 5 2023 Update** – Cringe! I started not to even post this. (I’ve got 37 pages of draft posts to get through, and I come across cringe worthy stuff!) But I wanted to save the reminder of where I was, how I got there, and where I am now.
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November 27 2014:
This morning I woke to a strong, warm blanket of love and memories.
Thoughts and visions of childhood Thanksgivings. The love, laughter, silliness, and craziness. Love shared with cousins, aunts, uncles, grandparents. And then came a wave of memories of old friendships and special moments; including moments where I’ve not been at my best and asking for forgiveness. It was so very special and filled my heart with love.
I am thankful for this. May your hearts be open to give and receive unconditional, compassionate love today … xoxo
(Camilla – 2014 – Washoe Lake)
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January 19 2013:
Fallen Leaf Lake … Refilling my cup …. Words cannot even describe y’all!! Pure Bliss …. Made my eyes sweat …
Truly did make my eyes sweat. Fallen Leaf Lake and Lake Tahoe gave me something to share with y’all!! What a gift nature and getting away to refuel is!!!!
Here ya go … The Gift from Fallen Leaf Lake …
