Path 2 Independence – University of Nevada, Reno

January 19 2023

Lillian and I just finished a 2 hour informational session for Path 2 Independence at UNR. Lots to think about.

Lillian has decided to wait another year. Her health and energy levels need to improve as this program will keep her on her toes!

Asking for Help is Never Easy – With Gratitude

January 16 2023

I’ve had to ask for help so many times throughout these years, I feel like folks have had enough of me! But at the urging of friends and after working through even more embarrassment, guilt and shame, I’m asking for help.

If I could get Thomas’s orthodontist bill paid off, I would be able to afford a car payment.
During a break between storms on the evening of January 2nd, the roads were clear and it had stopped snowing.

I decided it would be okay to take Thomas (my 17-year-old) to a previously scheduled evening appointment.

While Thomas was in his appointment, it began to snow. We were nearly home when I lost control of the car on ice. Miraculously we slid across the 4 lanes of the highway without hitting another car, and without a car hitting us.

The car slammed into the highway barrier. Airbags deployed but we were fine, other than getting punched in the face with the airbags leaving us bruised and a little bloody.

I was knocked silly and couldn’t think straight. Thomas. That amazing person. He was on top of it. He said something like, “Okay. We’re breathing. We’re both conscious. Nothing is broken. But I’m bleeding. Should I call 911?”

Highway patrol stopped traffic so I could get to the other side of the shoulder as I was facing oncoming traffic on the opposite shoulder.

Once they saw the car was somewhat operable, they escorted me to the mall parking lot where Remsa finished checking us. I was so close to our place, the patrol officer said it was okay to drive the car home.

The car looks absolutely fine from behind. But it is totaled. I had a mechanic come look at it, and it’s not worth it to fix. The front end shifted by about a foot!

I’ve had this car since 2008 – fourteen years! It came into our life when we had been without a car for nearly two years. I had planned on passing it to Thomas this summer. I’ve had to grieve over my plans getting messed up, and now I have to buy a new car. I needed to wait until I had finished paying for Thomas’s orthodontic work, and dental work I’ve been having done.

I had to keep …

https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-team-tlc-get-a-car

January 18 2023

The sky this afternoon. I wonder what tonight’s weather has in store?

Thank you for the loving kindness. I’ve written this sentence many times over the past couple of days. Last night I read a passage in a book I’m re-reading that stood out. I thought I’d share it with you.

“Loving-kindness is bringing happiness to other persons; compassion means relieving their suffering. The key that opens the door to loving-kindness and compassion is our capacity to understand our own suffering and difficulties, and the suffering and difficulties of others.”

I’m deeply grateful to everyone who has shared love, hugs, kind words, and donated. Your loving kindness and compassion mean so very much. Thank you, thank you, thank you. xoxo

The Interrupted Vegetable Soup

January 14 2022

This is a delicious vegetable and bean soup I made on Monday, January 2nd. I never posted it, and have been quiet on social media since then. When I go quiet on social media, it’s usually not a good thing. I’ve gone within and am processing.

I’ve had to work through embarrassment, guilt and shame before sharing with everyone. During a break between storms on the evening of January 2nd, the roads were clear and it had stopped snowing.

I decided it would be okay to take Thomas to a previously scheduled evening appointment. Our car is a 2 wheel drive, with the option to shift into 4 wheel drive so winter weather has never been a problem.

While Thomas was in his appointment, it began to snow. On the drive back the car began to malfunction, slipping out of 4 wheel drive. We were nearly home when I lost control of the car on ice. Miraculously we slid across the 4 lanes of highway without hitting another car, and without a car hitting us.

The car slammed into the highway barrier. Airbags deployed but we were fine, other than getting punched in the face with the airbags. The damn car was still running after all that!

I was knocked silly and couldn’t think straight. Thomas. That amazing person. He was on top of it. He said something like, “Okay. We’re breathing. We’re both conscious. Nothing is broken. But, I’m bleeding. Should I call 911?” (The airbag scratched his face.) Remsa checked us out. We all decided there was no need to go to the hospital.

Highway patrol stopped traffic so I could get to the other side of the shoulder as I was facing oncoming traffic on the opposite shoulder.

Once they saw the car was operable, they escorted me to the mall parking lot where Remsa finished checking us. I was so close to our place, the patrol officer said it was okay to drive the car home.

The car looks absolutely fine from behind. But it is totaled. I had a mechanic come look at it yesterday, and it’s not worth it to fix. The front end shifted by about a foot! It still runs though! It is a beast! Ha!

I’ve had this car since 2008 – fourteen years! It came into our life when we had been without a car for nearly two years. I had planned on passing it to Thomas this summer. I’ve had to grieve over my plans getting screwed, and now I have to buy a new car. I really needed to wait until I had finished paying for Thomas’s orthodontic work, and dental work I’ve been having done. Grrrr!

I had to keep reminding myself that Thomas and I came home that night, and walked into our house. That was truly a blessing. We had some incredibly scary looking bruises, but they have healed. I took photos of my bruises, and fat lip; which I shared with mom and Frank. I don’t want to trigger anyone with the photos though.

Why have I had to process embarrassment, guilt, and shame? Those of you who know me, know that it’s been a journey for me to not feel this way when things go wrong, or don’t go as I planned.
These were consistent feelings for me as a child, growing up, and into adulthood. A few years ago, I finally got to a place where I had released most of that. However, this was an unexpected, crisis situation. There was no stopping those feelings.

I usually end these personal kinds of posts saying something like I’m not posting for sympathy. That’s the case with this one, too. But I really don’t know why I’m sharing this. I guess just because my heart wanted to share. I do welcome love, hugs, and positive thoughts about my finances.

Who knows? Maybe there’s something in this long winded post that speaks to someone??!!
xoxo

**Adding** Thank you for taking the time to read my post and for sharing in this moment with me.

I want to add that after about 10 years of chronic economic anxiety, I have a difficult time making a huge financial decision. I swing between being impulsive and indecisive with the what ifs swirling in my thoughts like a tornado. It is exhausting, with having gone through the day in a foggy soup of decisiveness and indecisiveness.

Add to this my current health difficulties and this neurodivergent brain, life has me in not a very good place mentally. Thank you to everyone for the love and support. xoxo

Throwback Post: Team TLC and Snoopy Welcome You

**THROWBACK POST**

December 22 2013:

Success … one way or another! Finally had time to put together the 2 year old Snoopy gingerbread dog houses I found in the garage. The icing was a brick and I don’t have any powdered sugar, so I improvised and we used Elmer’s glue and glitter glue …. Team TLC n Snoopy welcome YOU with hugs and smiles!

Throwback Post: Lillian’s Idea of a Christmas Miracle

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December 22 2013:

Lillian’s idea of a Christmas miracle:

Thursday night as I was tucking her into bed, I didn’t feel good. I also didn’t feel like telling her a “life story”. She likes to hear little snippets about my life before she goes to sleep every night. I suggested I share a story that had happened that day.

I told her I went into a store after dropping them off at school. I stuck a kindness card we made into my jacket. We leave them wherever we go. As I was walking down one of the aisles it fell out of my jacket. I noticed after a couple of steps and turned around to pick it up. Then I realized no one was on this entire long aisle with me, the week before Christmas, in a crowded store, I was alone on this big ole aisle.

I told Lillian it landed right side up and that was where it was supposed to land for just the right person to find it, so I left it there. Lillian giggled and said, “A Christmas Miracle”. I giggled too as I had certainly not thought of it that way! Perhaps it was the perfect message that someone needed to come across at the exact moment in time that they “found” it.

Happy New Year 2023 – Team TLC Celebrates

December 31 2022

Homemade hummus, sliceable cashew cheese, and queso done. Having our annual spread a bit earlier this year. ❄️❄️❄️

And it’s still snowing. ❄️❄️❄️ This is the most snow our lil balcony has ever seen. 👀👀👀

That’s it for us. I’m headed to bed, turning the lights out on 2022. Happy New Year from Team TLC!! 🎉 🥳🎉

A Treat Filled Afternoon with Friends

December 31 2022

It was a fun afternoon yesterday. My friend Jessica and her husband Martin are visiting from The Netherlands.

We had a lovely chat while sharing coffee, hot chocolate, speculoos cookies, and chocolate. An afternoon overflowing with treats!

Jessica hand delivered the portrait she made of Team TLC along with a few delicious goodies. ❤️❤️❤️

 

Fully Licensed – Congratulations to Thomas

December 28 2022

It is done! Thomas passed the drive test and pre-registered to vote! 🎉🎉🎉Came home to celebrate with an unenthused Basil. 😂 Thomas will drive to school without me next semester. 🎉 Now instead of being scared to death while a passenger with Thomas, I can be worried to death while sitting at home! 😱

Throwback Post: Advent Calendar With Acting Classes While Visiting Santa

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December 22 2015:

So very grateful to one of our friends who has sent us this digital advent calendar for several years now. It’s become a tradition to sit together every day to experience this beautiful calendar. Even more special taking turns opening each day in TLC order. xoxo


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December 22 2011:

I WON!!! YeeeeHaaaawwww!! Early present for Team TLC!! Just got a message that I won 3 months of classes at Take 2 Performers Studio for Thomas or Lillian. I’m beside myself with gratitude! Give, give, give without respecting anything in return and you WILL receive!! WooooHoooooo!!

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December 22 2010:

Seeing Santa!!!! Thomas chattin with Santa. No go for Ms Fairy Princess Lillian!!!