Making Decisions from a Place of Love

**THROWBACK POST**

December 18 2015:

This morning’s theme from a client session had to do with acting and making decisions from a place of love, rather than a place of fear. This sounds simple on the surface. Upon stopping and accessing decisions and choices made, it’s easier to see that we do make some decisions from a place of fear. It’s actually a slight shift, the decision made may even be the same whether it’s made from a place of fear or love. However, the effects internally can be drastic.

I’ll use myself as an example. I have made the choice for myself and family to eat organic, non-gmo foods without artificial ingredients and low to no processed sugar. Have I made this choice due to my fear of illness, disease, and weight issues or have I made this choice because I love and enjoy this body and want to nourish it in the best way possible? The root of how this decision is made matters. It matters tremendously. The success of a decision hinges on whether or not it is made from a place of love or fear.

Another example: Am I accepting this job or this work because I fear having no money or am I accepting it because I am passionate about it and I know it’s my purpose to do this? This can be applied in relationship decisions also. This is not to say that one suddenly make the shift to making all decisions from a place of love and not fear. It’s enough to simply stop and note the root of the decision. And if you feel moved to make this shift for yourself, start small. Make it easy so that you can successfully shift to making all decisions from a place of love. xoxo

So grateful I get to share of myself in this way. When I meet with a client, I set the intention that the session will unfold organically and what needs to be said and shared will come forth. We message ahead of the meeting to know 1 – 3 areas to be discussed. During the session I ask questions and offer thoughts and techniques relating to mindfulness and emotional connection. Good stuff!!!

The Force is Strong

**THROWBACK POST**

December 17 2015:

Thomas and Lillian have successfully integrated me to the backwards world. Yesterday I wore my pants backwards without realizing until later in the day and this morning I had my shirt on backwards! Thomas is always putting his shirt on backwards and Lillian her pants.

The force is strong in this backwards world. xoxo

Sunny and Peaceful and Rock Love and Grumpy

January 28 2018:

Sunny, peaceful, feel-good walk with Lillian this afternoon. Sat for a while this time.

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January 30 2018:

Solo walk this afternoon. As many times as I’ve taken this same walk, I still come across new rock love. Love, sweet love …

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February 2 2018:

Virginia Foothills Park this afternoon to hit tennis balls and enjoy a short walk.

I’ve been incredibly grumpy today which has involved much unfiltered commentary and language. I’m incredibly blessed I can share with Thomas and Lillian that, frankly, there was much anger within me today. And, I can further apologize for my colorful language, letting them know I’m doing the best I can at processing it.

And … they give me the space and understanding I need. Blessed we three chose one another. xoxo ..

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My “word of the day” on Friday was an F-word that wasn’t Friday!! There was much anger and bitterness within me. I knew why it was there, and also knew it was a conditioned response. 

So I did my best to let myself stay with it and not push it away. The discomfort was there most of the day, yet by end of day had released some and yesterday morning had released fully. It was an amazing and magical day!!

Humane Society Volunteer Day with Thomas

February 1 2018:

Today was volunteer day for Thomas and I. After socializing with the cats, we cut sheets for use in the cat infirmary.

We did the cutting in a conference room and Thomas asked me twice why they had a Geiger counter. I finally asked him to point out what he was talking about. What do you think it was?**

It’s incredibly hard to cut sheets with regular paper cutting scissors. They really need a few pairs of fabric scissors. I feel like I mangled those sheets! Ha!

And look what I found under one of the sheets. I somehow cut a heart shape piece of fabric while mangling, I mean cutting, one of the sheets.

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**A typewriter!!! HA!!**

Love and Kindness and Laws – The Alchemist Theatre Sparked Conversations

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January 31 2018:

Oh so inspiring Alchemist Theatre tonight!! Missed you dearly Jessica Levity Daylover!!! Yet, hallelujah!!! For being Brave!!! Alchemist Theatre presents “Fear”

That closing song did it for me! KAPOW!!! I will survive!! Oh my gosh Carolyn R Smith!!! You serenaded my soul!

Denise Sheehan ….. Beautiful, sweet, and delicious alchemy shamama meditation! How amazing that one of my supporting themes of 2018 was a part of it!! Wahooo!!!

And. To seal the evening. Check out sister moon framed by this amazing, gorgeous, and handsome tree!!!

Thomas and I had inspiring and enlightening conversation during the drive there and back home … About love and kindness and laws and people who commit crimes. Amazing! Can you tell I’m a wee bit pumped! Ha!

Ending song sung by the sizzling Carolyn:

Gloria Gaynor – I Will Survive

“At first, I was afraid, I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights thinking how you did me wrong
And I grew strong and I learned how to get along

And so you’re back from outer space
I just walked in to find you here with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed that stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I’d have known for just one second you’d be back to bother me

Go on now go, walk out the door, just turn around now
’cause you’re not welcome anymore
Weren’t you’re the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye?
You think I’d crumble? You think I’d lay down and die?

Oh, no, not I, I will survive
Oh as long as I know how to love, I know I’m still alive
I’ve got my life to live, and I’ve got all my love to give
And I’ll survive, I, I , I will survive

It took all my strength not to fall apart
Trying with all my mind to mend my broken heart
I spent, so many nights feeling sorry for myself

Oh, I used to cry but now I hold my head up high
And you see me, somebody new
Not that lonely little person still in love with you
Now you come dropping in expecting me to be free
Now I’m saving all my loving for someone who’s loving me

Go on go, walk out the door, turn around now
You’re not welcome anymore
You’re the one, who tried to hurt me with goodbye?
Did you think I’d crumble? Did you think I’d lay down and die?

Oh, no, not I, I will survive
Long as I know how to love, I know I’ll stay alive
I’ve got my life to live, and all my love to give
And I’ll survive, I, I , I will survive
Go on go, walk out the door, turn around now
You’re not welcome anymore
You’re the one, who tried to hurt me with goodbye?
Did you think I’d crumble? Did you think I’d lay down and die?

Oh, no, not I, I will survive
Long as I know how to love, I know I’ll stay alive
I’ve got my life to live, and all my love to give
And I’ll survive, I, I , I will survive”

I love this song!! It used to be about a broken relationship. Yet, not anymore. It’s about the ego and psyche for me these days. Much love to you! xoxo

Journey of a Deepening Friendship

**THROWBACK POST**

November 6 2012:

One last toast with my friend Kimberly Phipps-Nichol before she leaves for Houston in under a week …. I’m so beyond HAPPY for you, and yet, so sad that you are leaving and your light and energy will no longer be here … I have so much enjoyed the journey of our deepening friendship … Will miss you so much … Plus, who will I drink Guinness with now?? I LOVE YOU LADY!!!!

Camilla and Kimberly 11.6.12

You Make Us Laugh

November 22 2017:

“You make us laugh just by your existence.” -Thomas Darnell

I’m purging and cleaning out the filing cabinet so to be sold and Thomas is reading some old Toastmasters magazines. One has an article on how to cause your audience to laugh …. The above are Thomas’ thoughts on my abilities in that department … Guess I got that one covered … I seriously cannot believe how much speaking and presentations I used to do. Holy Heck! I was a speaking crazy woman! Guess I ran out of stuff to say ….. for a while … HA! xoxo