Wonderful and Present Moments

February 8 2018:

Wonderful walk with Thomas this afternoon. This amazing young man causes me to stay in the present moment and l i s t e n!!!!

For the topics he wishes to discuss require more than a yes or no. I find myself responding “I don’t know” quite often.

He’s 12 and he likes to talk about some deep stuff. He told Lillian tonight that age doesn’t equate to how smart you are. I am so grateful, grateful, grateful for him.

Tonight after dinner he thanked me for listening to him and talking with him about all that interests him. I do, at times, get frustrated with his topics and I don’t hide it. I’m thankful that I can share honestly with him at those times and roll with it at those times when I find the topics fascinating and interesting. xoxo

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I Am Grateful We Have Trash to Take Out

**THROWBACK POST**

December 9 2013:

The other day Thomas was complaining about having to take the garbage outside. He was still complaining when he asked for my help to tie the bag. I shared with him that there are things I really don’t want to do around the house ..

Like clean the toilet or anything having to do with the stuff that goes into a toilet. Shared that I think to myself, “I’m so grateful we have a toilet to use, a toilet that’s in a house that we get to live in.” I suggested he could say to himself as he’s taking out the trash, “I’m so grateful we have trash to take out. It means we have food to eat.” He said, “I like that! Thanks!”

I truly love the little lessons I get to give myself by having these two in my life! xoxo

What Does Age Have to Do With Intelligence

February 10 2018:

“Age doesn’t have anything to do with intelligence.” – Thomas Darnell

Thomas continues to educate and humble me. The pure beauty and simplicity of how “young ones” view the world is magical. xoxo

He has never understood why kids are treated as second class citizens, why they don’t have any “rights” until a certain age … He enlightens and teaches me so much … xoxo

Laughing Mindfulness Session

**THROWBACK POST**

December 7 2015:

Last night before I read to Lillian and Thomas we did a “laughing” mindfulness session together. This one is really easy. Everyone stands ….. and …. just starts laughing. At first the laughs are forced, yet it’s magical how the laughs become genuine belly laughs that you cannot stop once started.

I mentioned something about this activity distracting one from non-stop thoughts. We sat down to read a chapter in “Stillness Speaks” and just so happens to have been about how we spend most of our time “distracted” by our thoughts. After I had read a page, Thomas asked if I had read this before deciding to have the “laughing” session. I told him that I had not and that usually what we need to hear or see comes into our life when we are open to it. As there was also a section on boredom and Thomas had repeated several times during the day that he was bored.

I was moved to share two sections from the chapter we read with you. I just happened to be in need of this wonderful reminder too!

“If you can recognize, even occasionally, the thoughts that go through your mind as simply thoughts, if you can witness your own mental-emotional reactive patterns as they happen, then that dimension is already emerging in you as awareness in which thoughts and emotions happen – the timeless inner space in which the content of your life unfolds. The stream of thinking has enormous momentum that can easily drag you along with it.” and “When you feel bored, you can satisfy that by reading, texting, using a digital device, etc ….. Or you can stay bored and restless and observe what it feels like to be bored and restless. As you bring awareness to the feeling, there is suddenly some space and stillness around it.” – Stillness Speaks

I so love it when this happens for me, and I especially love it when it happens for our whole family. I am so blessed to have chosen the path to learn and practice mindfulness, meditation, and emotional connection … and to share and facilitate this for others. May this be helpful in some way for YOU, too! xoxo

Sunny and Peaceful and Rock Love and Grumpy

January 28 2018:

Sunny, peaceful, feel-good walk with Lillian this afternoon. Sat for a while this time.

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January 30 2018:

Solo walk this afternoon. As many times as I’ve taken this same walk, I still come across new rock love. Love, sweet love …

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February 2 2018:

Virginia Foothills Park this afternoon to hit tennis balls and enjoy a short walk.

I’ve been incredibly grumpy today which has involved much unfiltered commentary and language. I’m incredibly blessed I can share with Thomas and Lillian that, frankly, there was much anger within me today. And, I can further apologize for my colorful language, letting them know I’m doing the best I can at processing it.

And … they give me the space and understanding I need. Blessed we three chose one another. xoxo ..

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My “word of the day” on Friday was an F-word that wasn’t Friday!! There was much anger and bitterness within me. I knew why it was there, and also knew it was a conditioned response. 

So I did my best to let myself stay with it and not push it away. The discomfort was there most of the day, yet by end of day had released some and yesterday morning had released fully. It was an amazing and magical day!!

Humane Society Volunteer Day with Thomas

February 1 2018:

Today was volunteer day for Thomas and I. After socializing with the cats, we cut sheets for use in the cat infirmary.

We did the cutting in a conference room and Thomas asked me twice why they had a Geiger counter. I finally asked him to point out what he was talking about. What do you think it was?**

It’s incredibly hard to cut sheets with regular paper cutting scissors. They really need a few pairs of fabric scissors. I feel like I mangled those sheets! Ha!

And look what I found under one of the sheets. I somehow cut a heart shape piece of fabric while mangling, I mean cutting, one of the sheets.

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**A typewriter!!! HA!!**

Love and Kindness and Laws – The Alchemist Theatre Sparked Conversations

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January 31 2018:

Oh so inspiring Alchemist Theatre tonight!! Missed you dearly Jessica Levity Daylover!!! Yet, hallelujah!!! For being Brave!!! Alchemist Theatre presents “Fear”

That closing song did it for me! KAPOW!!! I will survive!! Oh my gosh Carolyn R Smith!!! You serenaded my soul!

Denise Sheehan ….. Beautiful, sweet, and delicious alchemy shamama meditation! How amazing that one of my supporting themes of 2018 was a part of it!! Wahooo!!!

And. To seal the evening. Check out sister moon framed by this amazing, gorgeous, and handsome tree!!!

Thomas and I had inspiring and enlightening conversation during the drive there and back home … About love and kindness and laws and people who commit crimes. Amazing! Can you tell I’m a wee bit pumped! Ha!

Ending song sung by the sizzling Carolyn:

Gloria Gaynor – I Will Survive

“At first, I was afraid, I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights thinking how you did me wrong
And I grew strong and I learned how to get along

And so you’re back from outer space
I just walked in to find you here with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed that stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I’d have known for just one second you’d be back to bother me

Go on now go, walk out the door, just turn around now
’cause you’re not welcome anymore
Weren’t you’re the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye?
You think I’d crumble? You think I’d lay down and die?

Oh, no, not I, I will survive
Oh as long as I know how to love, I know I’m still alive
I’ve got my life to live, and I’ve got all my love to give
And I’ll survive, I, I , I will survive

It took all my strength not to fall apart
Trying with all my mind to mend my broken heart
I spent, so many nights feeling sorry for myself

Oh, I used to cry but now I hold my head up high
And you see me, somebody new
Not that lonely little person still in love with you
Now you come dropping in expecting me to be free
Now I’m saving all my loving for someone who’s loving me

Go on go, walk out the door, turn around now
You’re not welcome anymore
You’re the one, who tried to hurt me with goodbye?
Did you think I’d crumble? Did you think I’d lay down and die?

Oh, no, not I, I will survive
Long as I know how to love, I know I’ll stay alive
I’ve got my life to live, and all my love to give
And I’ll survive, I, I , I will survive
Go on go, walk out the door, turn around now
You’re not welcome anymore
You’re the one, who tried to hurt me with goodbye?
Did you think I’d crumble? Did you think I’d lay down and die?

Oh, no, not I, I will survive
Long as I know how to love, I know I’ll stay alive
I’ve got my life to live, and all my love to give
And I’ll survive, I, I , I will survive”

I love this song!! It used to be about a broken relationship. Yet, not anymore. It’s about the ego and psyche for me these days. Much love to you! xoxo

Swim Day and Oranges and Betty Boop

January 22 2018:

Homeschool swim day!!!

So thankful to those who have arranged this!! Northern Nevada Home Schools!!! xoxo

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January 25 2018:

Who else loves a good and juicy orange??? One of my favorite fruits at this time of year. Love them so much I’ve been known to eat three in one day!!! Yum!!! 🍊 👅… xoxoxo

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After I posted this on facebook, a friend posted this about the color orange:

“Orange is the color of creativity and sexuality. The color Orange is the color of joy, enthusiasm and creativity and promotes a general sense of wellness. Orange stones increase and aid personal power, self-esteem and confidence.”

https://crystalhealing.blog/2018/01/20/meaning-of-orange/

And I say, “This is great!!” I have to admit I find eating an orange incredibly sensual! HA! This description is perfect … Joy and Enthusiasm too!! xoxo

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January 26 2018:

And last night after the wonderful Chay Drol Healing Ceremony in South Lake Tahoe with the Gaden Shartse Monks, I just had to stop and ask Betty Boop, “Girl, aren’t you cold?” And, she replied, “Naw honey. I’ve got an internal fire that keeps me warm year ’round!” Wheeee!! xoxo

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Take That First Step by Camilla Downs – Part Two

January 29 2018:

A continuation of thoughts shared two weeks ago. Do you need to have the means before you begin creating? I say start where you are and grow from there. Here’s an excerpt … xoxo

” …. so I’m going to get to the bottom line first thing. And those who are interested about the entire story can read further. Lillian’s book was published with absolutely no money paid out to anyone for the creation of the book. That’s it!

Now, there was a bit of money paid for the ISBN bar code graphic (about $20), for envelopes to mail the books once received (about $15), and for two proof copies of the book (about $15 each which included shipping).

I want to reiterate that I am not sharing this to brag or gloat. That is not my nature. I am sharing this to give hope, to share …… ”

“Whatever you can do or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it.” – Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

Now, for Thomas’ book, Biggest Little Photographer. His book did cost us a bit of up front money as it is a photography book and these are not the type of book to use Amazon’s createspace for publishing and printing.

When Thomas was 8 years old, he began a 365 day photography project. Every day for one year he made a photo of a LEGO mini-figure photographer making a photo. We took that little man with us everywhere!! For one full year he traveled with Thomas and Team TLC. In the beginning, I told Thomas that if he stuck with it, we’d make it into a book. A real, published book that we could sell.

And, he did stick with it. About a month or two after beginning …. Go here to read more …

Can a Book Be Published With Little to No Money – Part Two

 

He Infected His Classmates

**THROWBACK POST**

December 4 2014:

When I picked Thomas up from school yesterday he told me that he was infectious and he had infected some of his classmates. I said, “Really, what are you infected with?” ….. SMILES. He smiled at his classmates all day; which caused some of them to smile at other classmates.

He had one young man ask him why he smiled. He told him, “Cause it feels good,” and that caused the young man to smile. I am so blessed to have this infectious young man in my life. He can infect me anytime! I declare all of Team TLC infected! Watch out!