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February 21 2013:
Way late writing and posting this one … The next 30 Day Journey of Life … Self-Love … “Self-love is the source of all other loves.” -Pierre Corneille
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Wet and Wet and Wet and Cold and Nature Prisms
February 21 2017:
Wet, wet, wet, and cold walk today. Just love this sound. xoxo
February 22 2017:
The melting icicles were acting as prisms this morning with the sunshine. I tried to capture it, yet this is all I could capture. Got soaked taking these as everything was melting in gushes!! xoxo
Live the Life You Have Imagined
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February 21 2013:
Heard this quote this morning and it gave me chills …
“I have learned, that if one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours.” -Henry David Thoreau …
A dear friend recently shared his dreams with me. This is for him and anyone else who wants/needs to hear this message. Here’s an article I wrote to go along with the quote … Happy Advancing Y’all!
Are You Really Living in the Present Moments of Life
February 20 2017:
“Live in the present. That’s in the past. Let it go.” –Lillian Darnell ...
We teach what we most need to learn. Thank you Lillian for sometimes being the student and sometimes being the teacher.
I stand at the beginning of my third week of confronting some deeply buried crud. I feel this week will be the climax and I’m grateful for all that I’ve shared and modeled for Thomas and Lillian as they hold space for me when I need it most.
This year’s theme for me is “The Shift” and I don’t seem to be wasting any time! xoxo – May this resonate with whoever it resonates with … xoxo
“It’s time to step into the flames of the fire. The time is now to connect with that which you fear from your past. The past no longer exists and cannot cause you harm. However, when it is avoided and sidestepped; it does indeed cause you harm.
This avoidance and sidestepping keeps you a prisoner of the past and held captive to a perceived smallness. As the flame grows, be still and know that you are not alone. Be still and know it cannot hurt you. It cannot consume you.
By bringing your light to the flames of the fire, it will be extinguished and transformed into the light of freedom.
The freedom to claim your power. The freedom to know who you are. The freedom to shine your light with others.
Be still. And Know.” – The Journal
How to Connect With Emotions
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February 20 2016:
“The precursor to defining emotional connection is to reach acceptance that negative emotions and discomfort are a part of us. Then, begin the practice of not running from the uncomfortable emotions, or squashing them with positivity, or feeling a failure for having them. Emotional connection is …. ”
“Let the power of your emotions open you up … Take your seat in the middle of your home ground and rouse your confidence – your innate capacity to open to your experience.” – Pema Chodron’s “Living Beautifully“
It Inspires Me
March 4 2017:
“It inspires me.” ~Lillian Darnell
Lillian asked this morning why I had not posted anything in an Arts facebook group lately. I explained that I have so much on my to do list. Also, that I felt my poems and nature photography were not inspiring and healing to those within the group.
She then suggested instagram. I explained that it did seem to be more meaningful to those who see them on instagram, yet it takes so long to post combining the photo, the poem and the tags.
She then said, “Your poems and photography inspire me.”
Thank you Lillian for reminding me that what I create is divinely inspired. The creations will touch who they are meant to touch when they are meant to touch. And, I do not need to hear that this has been so.
Why I Choose to Embrace My Shadows
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February 13 2015:
“Until your knees finally hit the floor, you’re just playing at life, and on some level you’re scared because you know that you’re just playing. The moment of surrender is not when life is over. It’s when life begins.” -Marianne Williamson
The year 2014 was a year of the knees slowly hitting the floor, culminating with a smack down slamming of those knees the last three months of 2014. Deep fears and negative emotions were faced and released like never before.
I began January 2015 with an intent to focus on meditation and love and have stuck to that. I knew that the solutions and answers were inside of me and no where else. I’m nearing the end of a 3 week intensive meditation exercise of meditating for an hour and a half every day.
A miracle has happened as I’ve been opening a heart that went into hiding as a young girl. Love is indeed a magical charm! Meditate on. Love on. xoxo
**Update** March 1 2017: Just when I thought that 2014 was the culmination of the knees hitting the floor! There was more and deeper work to be done. Definitely not because it is fun. I had been harboring deeply buried hurts, pain, anger, and guilt from my childhood. I am currently in the fourth week of an intense five session reflexology and energy work course.
It has been literally kicking my butt. Seriously, physically painful …. Like, I thought I was dying two weekends ago. Holy heck! What webs we weave to not feel uncomfortable feelings.
Yet, absolutely, totally, amazingly, and miraculously freeing … FREEDOM. I have chosen to walk into the fear of my past, my personal shadows and darkness. So as to live my life from each and every present moment; rather than reacting from the past. And, thereby creating my future from the present moments and NOT from the past.
YES!
Walking by Camilla Downs
Walks of clarity
Walks of peace
Walking for no reason
Walking to get no where
This is the walking
Of which I speak and write.
These are the walks
That become what
One most needs
In the moment.
The walking becomes
The teacher and
Nature the classroom. -2016 Camilla Downs – Author, Lessons from Nature
Why I Journal Write and Meditate
Meditating and Asking
This morning during meditation and prayer, I expressed that I was ready to release certain aspects of my life. As I was ready to face whatever needed to arise and be embraced.
During journal writing, I asked, “What am I to focus my attention on today?” Basically, the answer that came forth was to focus on being present in each moment. [ 598 more words ]
Which Teacher Most Influenced You
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February 26 2016 (Camilla’s Birthday 2016):
Thomas gave me a sweet hug. Lillian gave me a wonderful card that she hand made. I received a beautiful birthday card and birthday money yesterday from Mom n Frank. I’m receiving all of your brilliant birthday wishes! (Thomas took this picture of me on one of our Fall 2015 Date Days – Bartley Ranch Loop, Reno, NV)
On the way back from dropping Thomas at school I heard Aerosmith’s “Walk This Way”, Duran Duran’s “Rio”, and then Stevie Nicks’, “Edge of Seventeen”. I was absolutely floating. Rio caused me to think of junior high at Oaklawn Jr. High and the awesome friendships made there. I love all y’all!! Then that caused me to think of Ms. Eschete (I am not spelling her name correctly!), my homeroom teacher and also the drill team facilitator/sponsor.
I’ve never known how to answer, “Which teacher most influenced you?” It would be her. She believed in me. She believed in an awkward, inexperienced, tall, and lanky girl who tried out for the drill team …. and did a horrible job! She still chose me and it was the most wonderful experience.
I have wanted to be a dancer since being a young girl. In fact, I AM a dancer. I just don’t do it in front of an audience. I become the music. I can feel it in my soul. Nothing else exists in that moment. I become one with it. So, THANK YOU amazing teacher for believing in me!!
Happy, Happy, Happy Birthday to Magnificent ME!! Oceans of love to all y’all! xoxo ….. I’m going to go for a walk today and write, write, write!!
