Flying to Montana and Smoke Alarm and Cranberry Sauce

November 20 2018:

It was a great day for “Where Would You Fly” to fly to Montana! Be wild and free!!! 🧚🏼‍♂️🧚🏼‍♂️🧚🏼‍♂️

November 21 2018:

How on Earth did I cause the smoke alarm to go off while Thomas helped make the cranberry sauce?

You take one part Lillian wanting me to help her decide what to wear.

One part helping Thomas gather items and follow the directions.

One part me adding Orecchiette pasta to boiling water while the bag opening is unknowingly facing the opposite direction. Pasta spreads across the counter and stove top and onto the hot burner. The two landing in the burner burst into flames.

Then we have a smoke alarm going off which leads to Lillian going off because the alarm is going off. Lillian has a new rule now. Smoke alarms MUST be turned off before cooking!! 😂😜

Wheeee … Cranberry sauce finished and delicious!!! 💞💞💞

Submitting Poems and I Was Born To

November 16 2018:

Another “planting of the seed” that I’ve planted and will move on … As it takes them up to 6 months to read the poems and only after that do you find out if they accept any of them. At least I did it!! Took forever to go through the poems and narrow down to four!!

And, a little fun …

“I was born to be a beautiful sunset walk with y’all and I love you dearly.”

Just had to do this … Type “I was born” and let the predictive feature write the rest. Haha!

Sometimes I See People Staring At Me

November 12 2018:

“Sometimes I see people staring at me. I can see in their eyes that it’s a ‘you’re crazy’ look.” – Lillian …

I asked her if this bothers her? Yes, it does. …. (I told her they must be staring because she is so beautiful … 😍😃)

In the past when I’ve noticed others staring at Lillian, I ask them if I can help them and ask if they have any questions or if they are curious about Lillian. I also let them know it’s unsettling for another to be stared at by someone.

I will be kind. Yet, I am human and I am also Lillian’s mom and protector. I do have my limits. I told Lillian to let me know the next time it happens so that I can “help” the one staring.

People stare at me often too. I have no idea why. I have finally reached a point where I can mostly not be bothered by others actions and words. Yet, I also just don’t give a pluck. 😂🤣😜And, there again, maybe I have lettuce in my teeth or my clothes are on inside out … Hahaha!! xoxo

I posted this on facebook on November 12th and thought I’d share some of my response to friend’s comments ….

I’m sure most people don’t even realize they are doing it. Yet, it digs at one’s heart when one’s offspring is bothered by it enough to say something … more than once. I also told her that she could ask them why they are staring if she felt like it.

I have had a child ask me “What’s wrong with her?”, so since they were a child, I was able to explain it all to them. However, having an adult say that would most likely put me past my limit! I’m so crazy myself, and having a wild imagination, I would have them thinking they need to seek another planet on which to live … xoxo … And, then again, I may just start dancing. That would really freak em out.

Thomas asks me sometimes why I’m staring at him. I’m not. I’m just deep in thought and looking in his direction. I think for the most part this is what is happening. Except for the occasional times when one can sense from the energy of the other; that they are being judgmental or having negative thoughts.

I have to say that my split second initial response is a firm-smart-ass-full-of-profanity’s-tell-them- off comment. Yet, I know this gets society no where having this response. So, I tell them what I think, yet, in the kindest way possible.

I get lost in thought at times and I’m sure it seems as if I’m staring at someone when I’m actually just dazed and confused!! HA!

Thankfully, no one has been rude to her, except for when she used to be in public school. Fortunately, I don’t think it bothers her as much as it could. Perhaps it has helped a bit when she or Thomas tell me I’m weird or crazy and I respond with, “Thank you. Thank you for noticing!” HeeHeeHee!

Wonderful and Inspiring and Breezy and Colorful and Wispy and Beautiful and Mild and Peace and Knowing and Comfort

November 4 2018:

Wonderfully inspiring and breezy walk this afternoon. The letting go is almost complete with these three trees. 🌲 🌳 💚

Beautiful bright orange and hot pink sunset tonight. Love the wispy clouds. 💞🧡💛

November 6 2018:

Afternoon walk. Incredibly beautiful and mild weather. 💚💚💚

November 8 2018:

This mornings walk …. Deep beauty, peace, knowing, and comfort. Nature is one of the greatest gifts …. 💚🌏💙

The Beauty of All Individual Personalities and Souls by Camilla Downs

November 4 2018:

Still combing through the years of drafts saved on my blog! At least I’m in 2014 now! Hahaha!

(Thomas at Galena Creek Camp 2014)

The Beauty of All Individual Personalities and Souls

**THROWBACK POST**

February 19 2014:

When I picked up Thomas from school recently, he told me he has been asking all of his classmates whether or not they like LEGOS. Only one or two say they do and the others tell him they don’t and they like playing the Wii. He said it makes him feel bad that no one else likes them.

I explained to him that I’ve had a similar experience with feeling bad when others don’t like or feel the same way about something I like. BUT, I have learned that I am choosing to feel this way … And I can choose not to feel this way also.

He said, “That’s so hard, though”. I told him I completely understand and it takes lots and lots of practice to choose not to let it bother you. I said this may help …

The Beauty of All Individual Personalities and Souls

Team TLC Jack-o-Lanterns and Fairy Princess and Charlie Chaplin – Halloween 2018

October 28 2018:

Team TLC jack-o-lanterns … 🎃🎃🎃

Thomas ….

Lillian ….

Camilla …

October 31 2018:

It was a great day for Charlie Chaplin and Princess Fairy Lillian. Whew! And a busy day for this gypsy mama. Now we’re watching our traditional Halloween night movie …. Arsenic & Old Lace.

Thomas participated with a homeschool group for trick-or-treating so that residents at the Monaco Ridge Assisted Living center could hand out candy.

It was an interesting experience as I assume quite a few have varying degrees of Alzheimer’s or dementia. Thomas had a great conversation with one fellow talking about Charlie Chaplin, amongst other talk.

On the way out I found a kindness rock. I’ll perhaps add a little something to it and then drop off at a different location. Fun!!! 🎃👻🧡

Happy 13th Birthday My Dearest Thomas and Thomas and Camilla November 2018 Date Day

November 13 2018:

Happy 13th Birthday to Beautiful Thomas!!!! We’ve opened gifts, then taking Thomas out to lunch.

Next stop was Natural Grocers for a special treat and then to Grassroots Books to pick out a book. Then, home for apple pie topped with French vanilla ice cream.

My Dearest Thomas,

A child called Thomas was born
on this day in 2005.
The child arrived about 9:00 at night;
swimming into a new world.

Incredible joy this one
brought along to share.
Smiling, smiling, smiling
a great deal of the time.

A beautiful baby body,
soft as silk, deep with warmth,
and a perfect fit
in this Mom’s arms and heart.

The Mom’s love and support
for the child, Thomas,
runs as deep and wide
as the Universe and beyond.

What the Mom most wants
Thomas to know in the deepest
recesses of the heart ….

You cannot disappoint me,
You are not here to please me
and do as you think I wish.
You do not have to fear
what I will think.
You cannot disappoint me.

This Mom will support you
always and forever,
beyond even the time in
which she is using this body.
This Mom’s love is not
conditioned on who you be or don’t be,
nor what you do or don’t do.
This Mom trusts you.
This Mom believes in you.
This Mom knows you are worthy
of your heart’s desire.
This Mom apologizes for
conditions not being as you
and she deserve.

You cannot disappoint me.
I will love and support you
always and forever …

Happy 13th Birthday Thomas!

I love YOU!!

Now … Let’s make this the
best day of your life …. So far … xoxo

Camilla – Mom 💚💚💚

Where Would You Fly Book Signing and Magical Holiday Special

November 9 2018:

Camilla and Lillian with an update for Where Would You Fly and a special announcement!!! Please excuse the pause in the beginning. My laptop froze right after clicking the “Go Live” button and all we could see was a huge black square! So odd! It kept recording the entire time; yet, was frozen. Had to shut it down to stop the recording. Wheeee … Technology fun! xoxo

Here’s the special Lillian created with her magic wand and fairy dust …

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When Things Come Together by Camilla Downs

October 20 2018:

When Things Come Together

And she began the walk
The walk of only she,
breathing in, knowing she was breathing in
breathing out, knowing she was breathing out

She listened to the sounds of
the stillness
the song birds
the beeping construction equipment
the roar of an airplane overhead
the creak and pop of the plastic fence
the screech of the …..

Poetry and Photography: When Things Come Together

 

Walk With Me Journey to the Center of My Soul by Camilla Downs

October 13 2018:

Recently, during a 40 minute meditation session, it felt like 5 minutes. I am always in awe when that happens. I find it incredibly magical … xoxo

Afterwards I wrote this; which will be the opening for my next book. Sharing this sneak peak with all of you … It’s still in rough draft status; yet, I was moved to share. Perhaps someone needs to see a word or two from this …

Walk with Me
Journey to the Center of My Soul

I had a choice to make.

I could choose not to even go near or open the door that would lead to the awakening of my true self. I could continue living life as I had been, seemingly happy and seemingly enjoying life.

Or I could choose to open that golden, larger than life door. The magical door that would lead the way to truly living life. A life of feeling all there is to feel – every single bit of it. A life of strapping into the gigantic see-saw of this path and riding my way through pain, despair, sadness, unhappiness, joy, peace, love, and bliss.

Walk With Me – Journey to the Center of My Soul